April 6, 2017
In the Shadows
You speak so highly of yourself my dear. Your beliefs and thoughts are showing. Don’t worry we see them…in fact we all see them. I applaud you for inspiring those who might not have that inspiration within themselves. Sometimes that is what we need, just a little push in the right direction.
But don’t you think that your words and beliefs fool us.
We see you.
In fact, we see right through you, my love.
Only those who speak your supposed language are actually living up to those words and beliefs. They are out there, doing just that my darling.
So maybe don’t speak so much. Maybe try doing what you preach.
What’s your truth?
Stop hiding. We see right through you.
In the shadows you hide, cheering everyone on but we all see the truth.
You don’t fool us darling, trust me. So here is something to remember…actually step out of those shadows and walk into what you speak each and everyday.
You preach and believe that you are higher than everyone else around you but you do no such thing about what you speak.
No one is listening to you. In fact, no one cares. The world is out there living and doing what they are supposed to be doing, as you should.
Don’t remain in the shadows.
Speak your truth, but actually live by it my love. You are only sitting there, hoping that you too believe it all as much as you make us believe so.
January 12, 2016
Let your imagination run wild. Allow yourself to get lost in a world where anything and everything is possible. No rules are needed to be followed, and no feelings are to be locked.
You do as you please.
After all…it is your life.
Whether others speak and disagree, you continue to move forward and leave those naysayers behind.
Because only you know what you want…and what will make you happy.
Don’t listen to those who speak negative about your beliefs and dreams. Everyone will always want to bring you down. They will always have something to say, so all you need to do is keep doing you.
Do what makes you happy.
After all…it is your life.
So just continue to move forward. Imagine that those who speak badly of you are your inspiration. Push past them. They are on the sidelines as you are moving forward, getting closer and closer to the finish line. They’re cheering you on, giving you the motivation that they never had.
After all…it is your life.
And always remember, just because they couldn’t live out their dreams, it does not allow them to tell you not to live yours.
November 3, 2016
Awoken with a dream that only exist when the night time comes. A thought that lingers in your head throughout the day. Emotions run wild and you can’t grasp the idea of what is, and what is not. You look for answers in your troubled mind, but nothing seems to make sense. All you know is that you are awake, and what you just dreamt doesn’t exist. Yet you look for him in a crowded place…
October 19, 2016
Let Me Go
Let me go.
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again.
I don’t know how many times I have to say it for you to understand it. I hate having to repeat myself over and over again. I’ve moved on. I’m doing good and I’m happy. I’m doing me, but here you come along and mess with my emotions once again.
It’s like you choose a day to remind me and bring back all the memories we once shared. Those memories that I’ve tried to push out of my mind. You bring back the feelings that were once there the moment I was wrapped in your arms.
But I’m done having you remind me of what we were and everything that you and I shared. That was the past, and this is the present. I’ve moved on from you.
I’m still trying to. It hasn’t been easy. And you trying to call me won’t help my heart.
Please don’t tell me you miss me every time you hear our song playing on the radio. Don’t send me random pictures that remind you of me. Don’t message me asking how I am.
Just let me go. If things didn’t work out the way we wanted them to, there is no way they will now. We fought against everyone and everything and it didn’t end well. So please don’t ask me to do the same now.
You do you. Be happy. Live your life. Find someone who will give you what you want. Someone who will give you ten times the love that I once gave you. But please, let me go.
I don’t want to think back to the days we shared. As much as I loved them, sometimes I’m not quite over them. It hurts me to know you still do. And by trying to reach me, it will only make it worse. I might believe you again. I might think we have a chance again…
But just let me go and don’t come looking for me anymore.
Song: Let It Go by James Bay
August 1, 2016
The first day of August.
A new month has come upon us and the excitement is in the air. Every day we get closer to Fall and Winter time. My favorite seasons of the year!
Another hour, another day to the best time of the year. I’ve been waiting so long for this, but now that it is finally arriving, my anxiety has kicked in.
The year is almost over. We have five months to finish 2016, and it is scary to believe how fast the time has actually passed.
Have we accomplished everything we said we would? Have we made something out of ourselves? Have we crossed off something from our bucket list this year?
As much as I love these next few months that are about to arrive, I can’t help but feel the anxiety and fear of another year leaving us behind without not doing what I told myself that I would get done this year.
My list just seemed to grow, but never got done when I had the time. All the distractions from life kept me occupied and I never made the time to focus on myself and do what I had to do.
So now with this new month just beginning, I have come to terms with myself to make thing happen! A new day. A new mindset.
I have my goals and the things that I want to accomplish in life, but now I just need to work for them. No more slacking off, no more distractions. I have a few months left until the year is over and there are so many things that need to get done.
So with this new month, it has given me the motivation and excuse to do so.
I’m done siting here wishing for what I want, instead of getting up and working for what I could have.
I am motivated to keep doing what I want to do and continue my path to where I want to get. This isn’t a starting over phase, this is a continuation time.
I pressed pause before, and now it is time to press play.
Today is the day to start something that you’ve been wanting to do for so long. Whether it is painting or getting fit, to cooking, or traveling. Whatever it is that you want to do, go for it! Start little by little and you will see the progress that you will make in just these few months left in the year. You got this! Don’t let anything or anyone hold you back!
It is never to late to start, but just don’t forget to never completely stop your journey.
August has made me realize all of this and more, and whatever I do from now on, I know to never give up!
So here’s to the new month, filled with new hopes and dreams and things that will get done one day at a time!